Wishing and Hoping and Dreaming...

... or however that song at the beginning of My Best Friend's Wedding goes.

It looks like we have a car lined up, once we get The Money. We also, of course, have a whole relocation to Brighton lined up, but even I know that that will take a bit more time. Very excited about the car though.

Things are actually going okay the moment, unbelievably. And it's pay day tomorrow! I am living in a state of half excitement about how lovely life is going to be this year, half fear that everything is going to come crashing down around my ears as per usual. It's quite exhausting in a funny kind of way.

I sometimes wish I was stupid. You know, Jade Goody kind of stupid (I do actually quite like her, by the way). Just stupid enough not to constantly second guess and worry and catastrophise about bloody everything.

Either that, or someone could fit my brain with an 'off' switch.