Hopes and Fears

My 3 Biggest Fears:

1.Losing Him (I would hope this is fairly self explanatory)

2. Losing my sight (this is enhanced by having crap eyesight and various eye problems, which shouldn't lead to blindness but I constantly fear will. I have about five eye exams a year, even though you only need one, and this means I am an optician-whore, and even when I've been examined and cleared by almost every optician within a 10 mile radius, I am still scared. I even have a special contingency plan of what I will do if I do go blind)

3. Finding out I'm going to die (I'm not scared of dying as a concept, I'm scared of knowing about it beforehand. I am of the opinion that dying in an accident would be preferable to having weeks or months of preparing for it.)

Obviously there are lots more things I'm afarid of, like all people, but those are the big three.

My 3 Biggest Hopes:

1. That the book will one day be published (I don't even care if anyone buys it. I just want to see it on the shelf in a book shop)

2. That one day we will earn enough for life not to be such a struggle (I'm not talking about being rich, just comfortable)

3. That He and I will have long and happy lives, even if we're not together by the end (I'm a realist, what can I say?)