Wanted: Brain Space

My head is working overtime at the moment. It's exhausting. All this financial stuff, constant sums and worrying, as well as work, family, relationship, blah blah blah. It's no wonder I've got no mental energy left to be creative.

I spring cleaned the house on Saturday, with the exception of the kitchen (His territory) and our respective creative territories (my study, His 'studio'). It feels good somehow to know that there are no cobwebs or skeletons lurking in the backs of cupboards or under beds. Now I just need to do the same to my mind!

I'm slightly obsessed with trying to get everything in our financial life fully automated - DDs, standing orders, all that sort of thing. I want to be able to just not think about it all from one week to the next. I feel like I've done enough financial planning and juggling to last a lifetime.

Even when I'm asleep, I can't relax. I dream about sums, money, cheques... I used to dream about flying.

I'm a newlywed drama queen - get me out of here!